kerouac says

that the graduate program did: it widened the lens. maybe i was never really a regional theatre girl. i'm not saying i don't love it, but maybe the ambition associated with moving to new york i sort of lost touch with the weirdos. and, in truth, the weirdos are my life. taylor mac, you are it. kate valk, you are it.

when we get to LA, i hope someone immediately points me towards some drag, some cabaret with drinking contests, and some weird fucking bunraku chekhov. universities are good for that, right?

i feel a little ambition coming on. this might just work out: being a happy person, doing a little art, having a couple of babies. it could work.