Sunday, November 27, 2005
hark.
well, thank god that's over.
i feel like singing. the relationship rolaids must have rolled through, because i am RELIEVED. the stuff at the bottom of all this still requires work, but last night all the most frightening stuff got taken off the table. we both spent the day miserable, and so wrung out that at the end of the day, there was nothing to do but sit down in the quiet and talk about how it really is, big words and outrage aside. and how it really is, is: we're a constant. we are both agreed that whatever needs figuring out, it happens in this context.
so many of the most heartbreaking situations are the product of two people using the same words to mean different things. maybe it's hard for a divorced person to say the word "always," and maybe constantly quizzing that person about detailed scenarios in which he could possibly foresee bad things happening is the dumbest way to turn yourself into an anxious, sobbing lump.
we got the reassuring done, and then we agreed to lay it down until we meet the couples counselor later this week. to lay it down and be us during the meantime. and then we ate some dinner and watched mr. sh0w. nothing has ever felt better to me in my life.
i feel like singing. the relationship rolaids must have rolled through, because i am RELIEVED. the stuff at the bottom of all this still requires work, but last night all the most frightening stuff got taken off the table. we both spent the day miserable, and so wrung out that at the end of the day, there was nothing to do but sit down in the quiet and talk about how it really is, big words and outrage aside. and how it really is, is: we're a constant. we are both agreed that whatever needs figuring out, it happens in this context.
so many of the most heartbreaking situations are the product of two people using the same words to mean different things. maybe it's hard for a divorced person to say the word "always," and maybe constantly quizzing that person about detailed scenarios in which he could possibly foresee bad things happening is the dumbest way to turn yourself into an anxious, sobbing lump.
we got the reassuring done, and then we agreed to lay it down until we meet the couples counselor later this week. to lay it down and be us during the meantime. and then we ate some dinner and watched mr. sh0w. nothing has ever felt better to me in my life.
