kerouac says

i spent another day at the casting director's office yesterday, as a reader. the sweet day job guys gave me the day off, and then another few hours this afternoon when i'm going back to audition for a morgan stanley commercial. she said, "you know what, you should go out for this. they're looking for real actors." i think that was a compliment. it may also have meant that i'm not pretty enough for normal TV.

because, man, the television actors are pretty. they are unreal pretty. and most of them would not have gotten a part in my school plays in college, because as actors, most of them make good pretty people. i always figured extreme good looks could make up for a certain deficit in talent, but these kids are gorgeous and really lamentable, so i guess it sort of works the other way: only the very, very able can surmount the obstacle of mediocre looks.

there was one woman who was beautiful and really good, though. way better than i would have been able to do with the script involved. and she was wearing the same sweater i was wearing. this gives me hope.

but anyway. think good thoughts around four pee em eastern standard, if you've a mind. despite my whinging, it is a very good thing to get to go out and attempt to earn a living.

**edit: sorry about the unclosed tag. i have zero blog cred.