Sunday, June 22, 2003
i'm a dweller. even when i'm ecstatic to move forward, i can always be reduced to weepy and kind of doubty-feary by a big show of what i'm removing myself from. even when it's something i consciously decided wasn't so important. if i could change the process, i would. i don't like feeling tethered, but like this it's hard to leave anything behind. i'll do it anyway, this time, but i wonder how much earlier it would have come. it's like once i've found someone who'll sit with me at lunch i can never leave the state. sheesh.
